By Lindiwe
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It is the start of the new year and I would just like to start of by wishing a good prosperous year and I hope you achieve and release your gaols this year.
Of course, many of us may feel that this year might not be so different from last year, I am already starting to feel like the year is just a continuous 2020. I still feel as though there is still hope for me to live better this this year, to feel better, to let my guard down and just explore this year.
And I know that is so hard to achieve with this “new normal”, but I just want to try. And I feel that this outlook has been helping my anxiety. I entered the new year with such a heavy heart, seconds into 2021 and I was letting my loudest tears run down my face. I just could not believe just how much I have achieved, how much I have been bottling inside me for so long. I just didn’t realise how much pain I was holding in until I couldn’t let room for a smile, I could not make time for a chat with a friend… until I gave up all the things that gave me peace and that was my biggest torture.
I was mostly angry with how the year went by; I was so angry that this was not the year I had envisioned. I was so sad at how many people where losing their loved ones. It was so hard seeing other people in agony, that I started falling into my own depressive episodes.
But I hope to believe that I feel way better now, I feel energised for a new start again, and I do not know where it will lead by I hope for greener pastures this year. I hope I can grow my blog, so it reaches more and more people who like what I have to say, and write more and more series reviews that people would love to read.
I hope this year goes just a little better for us, at least for our sanity.
I hope this year is a lot better for all of us.
Let’s try.
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