By Lindiwe
It’s so beautiful for me to see myself pick up pieces of myself that I never thought I would
It’s so heartwarming to see myself being kinder and more patient with myself With every act of this generous gesture to myself
I fall in love with myself, over and over again
– conversations i should have with myself more often
By Lindiwe
You glaze at me with your perfect eyes
I’m wondering exactly what are you looking at
Because you see the world that has become in me
And my thoughts are filled with faults I’ve never forgiven myself for
“I love you” you said
How are you so at peace with somebody who’s not at peace with themselves?
By Lindiwe
It’s been a couple of months since our lives have been turned upside down by this pandemic and having is adjust to changes quickly so we can cope with the new normal.
I haven’t been blogging lately because online learning is my biggest nightmare and also I’m just lazy, I won’t even deny it lol.
But I must admit even though I’ve been more “productive” I have been feeling out of place lately,completely withdrawn from reality and completely unmotivated to do anything. So basically the past few weeks my body has been just carrying me and I found myself back to my happy place again, here on this blog.
I’m not here to say much but that we should continue to try to the best we can during this time,do things that make us happy, do the things that make us happy until we cry, do things that expose our true raw selves.
That we should enhance our talents and abilities to remind ourselves that we move with tender unique purpose.
You are loved, you are beauty, you are golden and each day is another chance given to you for a purpose.
You are cared for, you are important and loved.
Remember that, because I am writing this for the both of us, live and feel every moment
Take care and be well
By Lindiwe
Hey guys, I’m finally back from a long two weeks of online tests and I must say being back feels great!
I have been thinking lately about starting a new journey and take up something that might have better and stronger opportunities for me; and I told myself to just start. That’s what matters to just start right?
Often times we are told to follow our dreams and ambitions and it all sounds to easy on the surface, especially when you face challenges like money constrains, the environment you’re in doesn’t allow for your content creation and also time.
That’s what I’ve been facing, and it has been very demotivating and sometimes I want to throw it all away.
But then I remember why I wanted to start, why it occupied my mind so much that I wanted to start.
Purpose. When you start you must have purpose, purpose of what you want for yourself, purpose of where you’d love to see yourself in 5 years. Being insightful of your underlying purpose can help you out of situations where you’d feel like just dropping everything because of the challenges you’ll face.
Patience. Be patient. When you decide to go towards your goals remember that everything takes time and everything will happen in due time.
Believing that it will all align. Your efforts will align with your goal as time goes by, you will see that your constant and consistent efforts will align all you’ve planned and that’s the beauty of it all.
When things get tougher, remember why you started. This is a process, and there will be challenges that you’d need to overcome it’s okay to feel demotivated but always remember why you started.
If you’re reading this and you have been thinking of an idea but didn’t know how to execute it? Do your research, find the purpose of why doing this will mean a lot to you and start going towards your goals.
We’re all capable and all will come together in it’s own time.
Til next time! Keep well!
By Lindiwe
A lot in common we really have.
We both have our days where we as beautiful as we can be, and we capable of showing it off
And there’s days where we are just laid back
Interpreting that wind in every direction, very subtle, very calm
The slow frequency running through our delicate souls heals us
It takes us where we always go when we done blooming
A place of self-realization, of self-discovery
Because a journey that ends with blossoming should be one that always has a great start
By Lindiwe
It’s been a few long weeks, I have lost count of the days and each day is just the same as yesterday.
It’s been a few good weeks since I had promised myself to be consistent at blogging and practice my writing skills and surprisingly since I had made that decision, I have been more at ease. I can channel my thoughts better and that gives me more space to now focus on aspects of my life better, self improve and tell you guys exactly how I have been doing just that!
And I just thought that today I can cover how exactly I’ve learned to love, forgive and love myself AGAIN.
This hasn’t been easy for me personally because everytime I tried to be consist through it all, I’d fall in and out of feeding myself with negative thoughts, toxic habits, wallowing in self pity, and just being all I wanted to stop being.
But ever since I started unpacking on this platform, the support and love I have received has been amazing. And it hit me that I should start showing this love I’m getting from most of you to myself, and I’m doing well.
I started affirmations in the morning, such as:
By Lindiwe
Take yourself out on those dates, take time to yourself, be excited for your alone time, congratulate yourself and always remember to be present in every moment. Live, forgive, reenergize, love, forget, cry. Feel it all.
By Lindiwe
It’s been a few years since I’ve had realizations that have shifted my perspective and made me realise why my life was always so stagnant.
I’ve been battling with low self esteem for most of my life and it has been a difficult journey. It has seemed as though everything was just a lot, and I had seem to condition myself that being on myself had to be the only way I could move forward. I would only do things to distract myself from the awful thoughts of not being enough and trying to be something I’m not.
And also as you know this DOES lead to a whole lot of unhappiness?
That’s exactly what happened. Constant self doubt, constant self harm to my mental health. This lasted for years and towards the rest of the years it all got unbearable.
And that’s where I realised that I needed to change because it was hindering my progress and after a few consultations with myself I realised that the real problem lied in the way I had spoken to myself and about myself. It all started with how I had spoken to myself, the way I touched myself, the way I looked at myself.
The real secret was being mindful, affirmation, and choosing yourself each day. That’s the secret.
Mindfulness
Being mindful of not putting yourself down staying positive and constantly appreciating yourself and your achievements. Always setting your goals on what you’ve achieved and still want to achieve.
Reaffirmation
Telling yourself that you CAN AND YOU WILL. Telling yourself that you are wholesome, that you are and you will be all you want to be.
Choosing yourself
Choose yourself, choose yourself over and over again. Make the conscious decision to show yourself love everyday. Go on dates with yourself, do things that affirm you – that relax you.
I’ve been doing all of this for a while now and it’s been beautiful, days have been easier. I’m yet to have such beautiful moments with myself.
Til next time! Keep Well!
By Lindiwe
#Poetry #blogger
I am in this gloomy room
I got here just yesterday
My new owner says I look beautiful
I can believe that
I think she’s beautiful too
She says I smell good and I believe that
She’s a good person
So perfect
She’s what I am every time I am watered
Radiant
She feels like home, she is home
In her possession I will always feel wanted
She makes me feel wanted
It’s my second day and she’s taking pictures right beside me
She has watered me; I look as beautiful as her
She looks like everything is going to be okay
She’s the pillar of strength one meets once in a lifetime
There’s so much love and life in her
It shows on her skin, her smile
I am just a flower but it’s rare to find somebody who’s always in their raw form
I’m just a flower.
By Lindiwe
It’s been a few weeks since we were told to self isolate leading up to a lockdown and immediately this had a toll on my mental health. I was overwhelmed at how fast things were moving, how fast my life was changing.
I then tried to get the best of it all and tried self care routines,exercising, planning my reading times and blogging times. Well let’s say I really tried to do all of this.
In the first week I was still trying to make sense of it all, an hour at a time. I tried sticking to the schedule that I had drafted for myself.
One hour at a time I took it. And I did try to stick to the schedule.
But I just couldn’t. All I wanted to do was lay around, nap and do absolutely nothing. I didn’t want to be productive or learn something or even start a new habit in the first 21 days. I didn’t want none of that. It was overwhelming that I tried to not overcome the fear and uncertainty I was feeling and I tried distracting myself with schedules and tried to overcome it all.
I tried, but the depressed me just took over. I wanted sleep to get over it all.
But amidst all of that, I was very sad for not achieving my weekly goals because I chose sleep over productivity. I felt sad about that because this is probably the last time I’ll get this much free time ever again.
So I beat myself up for it over and over again, and in the second week I drafted a new schedule and new weekly goals. And that week I chose both sleep and productivity and I got to achieve half of my weekly goals.
In the third week I was calmer, more clearer of my head space so I didn’t draw up any weekly goals, I still chose sleep and productivity simultaneously – some days I chose neither. Some days I was okay with staring into space and scrolling on social media and interacting with friends to even care of what I need to enhance about myself in this time.
Right there and then, I realized that it’s okay. It’s okay to do whatever you want to do in this uncertain times. You don’t need to learn anything new, you don’t need to form new habits. It’s okay to rest, it’s okay to sleep. It’s okay. Don’t pressure yourself, you’ll get up when you feel the need to for yourself in your own time. Always take it easy.
Remember, do what makes you most happiest.
Til next time, keep well!